We only just begun? Right?

There is a menacing thing that lurks in our domain. However, we always submit hopelessly and ignore the consequences-- FATTENING FOOD.  It is so deliciously, comforting and just plain sinful. I aware of all the  baggage entitled with each destructive bite, I am not a fool, just weak. I've tried everything, but my problem is commitment, consistency, will, and planning. So Weight Watchers, Sensa, South Beach Diet, and others, I am a failure at your programs; failure, a word that trickles slowly down your vertebrate and  settles in the endless pit of your gut. Well I have had enough, I decide today, not you fat, but me instead.


 My most recent pic, not bad but not my ideal look.

Weighing yourself is one of the many pleasures of self loathing. In a baby blue tile mess called my bathroom, I weigh myself with dignity and little pride. It is far more suitable then performing the balancing act in front of a fit (and often gorgeous) trainer.  The vindictive and harsh scale moved its dial passed my ideal weight and landed at 242 pounds. That is more than I have ever weighed in all of my life. I gasped with astonishment and shame; I lean forward for better view and tumbled instead. Grief, shock and awe.




The weighing wasn't what I anticipated or wanted,  but now it's all about moving forward and reaching success. I look around on the web to find free tools and tips on losing weight. I came across sharecare.com, a site load with tips, a fitness and food journal tool, along with a graphs to track your weight, forums, exercise routines, and much more. I love it so much, but I don't use it all the time. I know the problem is more with me than the website. I consider it to be very user friendly and best of all it's free. So check it out.

I am hoping that by blogging about my weight and talking about my journal to a healthy lifestyle will help some way. There have been many successful woman and men online that have been able to achieve their goal weight and keep their weight off. I am hoping to be the next girl in line.

Peace, Love and Shanagins




P.S. To hold my self accountable I will be posting a pic, describing my exercise routine, menu  and weighing in every week.


WEIGH IN
245 POUNDS

EXERCISE ROUTINE 

NOTHING AT THIS MOMENT


MENU

NOTHING AT THIS MOMENT

MOOD 1 TO 10

1

ENERGY LEVEL 1 TO 10

- 10